FOR YOU….

FOR YOU, I know not how I got the fascination
but certainly it was much more than infatuation.

FOR YOU, I know not how my heart got melt
all that I can say that each time, glad, it felt.

FOR YOU, I know not made me to talk
as wasn’t clear the plans fate was to chalk.

FOR YOU, I know not how I managed to cling
happiness in my life, I expected you to bring.

FOR YOU, I know not what made me think you as my soulmate
though I knew for something’s to happen, for long, I had to wait.

FOR YOU, I know not, to you, my love, I went to confess
despite I knew that I had to try hard to garner success.

FOR YOU, I know not, to be with you, what made me to relocate
perhaps without knowing that differences one day would create.

FOR YOU, I know not how got suppressed my lust
so that, on you, I started to put all my implicit trust.

FOR YOU, I know not what made me do very candid
that certain things, about my past, I never hid.

FOR YOU, I know not how I tried to make you proud
just to make sure that we both could stand out in the crowd.

FOR YOU, I know not how I allowed you to move ahead
that too when explanations were still left unsaid.

FOR YOU, I know not when, me, you’ll think to forgive
so that one day, salvation, I can think to receive.

FOR YOU, I know not why my heart is still out to pine
though I know that you’ll never want to be mine.

WOES OF THE MOBILE CHARGER…..

Alone I stand, by myself, affixed to the wall
as my master doesn’t use me before he makes a call.
What has happened to him or his handset, I wonder
and to be neglected like this, what I’ve done as a blunder.

Those days it used to be a sort of a mystery
as to how quickly used to drained out the battery
that once the night’s conversation was over
the handset would be fixed to me before I could wonder.

All night, with his beloved, my master would talk
hoping one day with him, the aisle, she would walk.
All they talked and did, I know not as it was in silence
and to others also, as it never created, any nuisance.

Now that my master and his beloved have moved on
hardly anyone comes near me to switch me on.
Gone away are those nights of bliss and elation
as no longer is the need to reignite the old passion.

WHOM DO I TURN TO???

Time seems to go very slow
to none, my face, I cant think to show.
Still in life, I don’t have a single clue
for something, whom can I turn to.

Each morning, I dread he day that God goes to send
and as night comes, alone, I don’t know how to spend.
Even if the night somehow quickly flew
next day I don’t know whom can I turn to.

I know, to someone, I caused a lot of pain
in return, I have to endure all this as a bane.
Though her going away has been a blot from the blue
henceforth for something, I know not whom to turn to.

Everyday it is a new challenge that I’ve to fight
and all I can do is my woes to sit back and write.
Though for some questions, answers I wont ever know
I dread, for something, I don’t know whom to turn to.

ALONE IN THE CROWD…(Suggest a better title)

Alone in a corner of my room, all by myself, I sit
and ponder as to why, once again, my life got hit.
Not just that my company someone went to spurn
but my own daily bread, I am unable to earn.

The ongoing situation makes the situation worse
or was it some sort of, I know not, a curse
that has become a source a worry and regret
which my parents think as the wrong son they had to beget.

Grandmother doesn’t seems to have a worry or care
as for her, it doesn’t matter, whether am here or there.
Dad is still there able to provide for the next meal
but it is the son’s inner angst, he is unable to feel.

“Friends”, you may call them are in the city
but none to be with me partaking their felicity.
All of a sudden, it looks that am their foe
and its better that my face, I don’t show.

Slowly passes, in the day and night, the time
that being to oneself is like a heinous crime.
Thoughts always come of someone I pine
though I know that she wont be mine.

All I can hope is for the arrival of a new dawn
so that, in all ways, I can quickly move on.
It is time that I am again proud of my existence
and stop making people treat me as nuisance.

REFLECTIONS ON "FORGIVE AND FORGET"....

Despite some happenings becoming terrible
there would be moments that are amiable.
Yet when things don’t go as desired, perfect
would it be easy to "forgive and forget"??

There would tonnes etched in the memory
which would be like an enviable treasury.
Even if certain things make us feel upset
would it be easy to "forgive and forget"??

On feelings, sometimes we may have to seal
even if, on the other, we may continue to feel.
All this and more, even if we may never let
would it be easy to "forgive and forget"??

It maybe difficult to endure every phase
as how to do so, is not known, with grace.
Even if calmness one manages to project
would it be easy to "forgive and forget"??

WHAT DOES IT TAKE TO FIND A LOST LOVE???

INTRODUCTION:
A poster of SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE when i saw
something in it, left me with a strange feeling of awe
It was something that for long I am asking someone above
as to “WHAT DOES IT TAKE TO FIND A LOST LOVE”??

This was an answer, for sometime now, I am trying to realize
and hence seeing the “options” beneath, I began to analyze.
Hopefully this work, when my only true love gets to read
she understands, how much her company, I need.

MONEY:

This was something, for me, assured by pedigree
though its nature, only in future, I would see.
Whatever and how much it was, surely it was a bonus
and I felt, on this our relation ,wasn’t the onus.

Moreover you always knew, as person, what I am
as someone who was without any fanfare or glam.
Yet I was ready to put in efforts that were umpteen
so that in my heart, you were there as my queen.

LUCK:

Though to get it, one may be really fast
It is no guarantee that it’ll always everlast.
I always believed to get it, one had to toil
so that the rewards once got, none could spoil.

To have got a person, by chance, in my life, like you
was my desire that it would be there without any cry or hue.
Yet I always wanted to make you feel happy and proud
so that both could stand out tall in the crowd.

SMART(S):

It was known to you that, I was no Greek god
nor did I want you to’ve a Kareena like bod.
I always appealed by your inner self and beauty
and being loyal was always going to be my duty.

If you remember, I had never taken a look
and to fall in love, it was a risk that we took.
Even now, in our hearts, our intentions are pure
that I hope that to bring us back, it’ll help for sure.

DESTINY:

For this, the individual has always been the maker
and so I thought that it would be both of us together.
Though in many ways, we always had a difference
It would be, in our lives, some sort of an essence.

Still we had some things that were common
and that could have brought about our union.
Yet, for it we had to give it a careful thought
though, in our hearts, each other, we sought.

CONCLUSION:

Each of these views, if one were to give a glance
the issue confronting me would make some sense.
I hope that the effort I’ve put in each expression
ultimately leads me to get some jubilation.

If after reading it, something in your mind, you felt
I’ll be happy also if your heart also went to get melt.
All this, hopefully, will make her to me, come back
so that she can take away what all now I lack.

THE PLAIN DOSA….

Long ago, me, a girl used to relish to eat
and for me , it was always a kind of a treat
as whenever, with her lips, me, she used to bite
it brought happiness to the guy who was at sight.

This is all what, then, he could think to offer
apart from his heart that he thought was with her.
As she used to sip the tea and he drank the coffee
only giggles, from her, one could get to hear and see.

Almost every weekend, they would come to my restaurant
and eating me, about things, she would go to rave and rant.
All that the guy did was to bask in these moments of bliss
and just tell her how much her company he used to miss.

Alas, God only knows where these people have gone
or is that from their lives, they decided to move on??
I hope not as whenever, for me, someone places an order
It is always those two sweet people I go to remember.

WAS IT A MISTAKE???

Contemplation on the ‘saying’ “SET LOVE FREE. IF IT COMES BACK, IT IS YOURS. IF IT DOESN’T, IT WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE YOURS”. : (

Looking back, I wonder the decision we went to make
actually backfired and started to appear as a mistake.
The intention was to give each other the desired space
but boomeranged in a way that makes me feel disgrace.

Looking back, I wonder the decision we went to make
actually backfired and started to appear as a mistake.
The final outcome of it, I thought, would keep us together
and not that it would makes each of us go away further.

Looking back, I wonder the decision we went to make
actually backfired and started to appear as a mistake.
Our intention was to make our relation much more strong
but apparently it looks each of us were proved wrong.

Looking back, I wonder the decision we went to make
actually backfired and started to appear as a mistake.
For this blunder, I can never think to keep my head high
and all I can do is to sit back and let out a sigh.

WILL YOU CRY FOR ME WHEN I DIE????

@http://ofsomethingsomething.blogspot.com/2009/02/d-for-death.html

Guess when i was with you, i had been terrible
as now iam doomed to rot like a vegetable.
On my death bed, comatose and numb, now i lie
all i want to know is will you cry when i die.

In many ways, i know that i had been curt
by which you silently endured all the hurt.
Even though i know that none will fret and sigh
all i want to know is will you cry when i die.

Yet one thing, all those days, one thing was sure
that my love for you till the last, was pure.
Though for leaving me, I didn’t go to ask why
all i want to know is will you cry when i die.

I failed in all my attempts then, you, to impress
and so now,i want to make amends and ask forgiveness.
Very soon when i'll start soaring in the sky so high
all i want to know is will you cry when i die.

MUTUAL PAIN (SUGGEST A BETTER TITLE)

Even though your memories still remain
it hurts me that i gave you so much pain.
Maybe that’s what took you, from me, away
though i wished to know your say.

Life for both, maybe tough to endure
as how to stay apart, I dont've the cure.
When you were giving me love so pure
hardly i imagined that this day would come for sure.

Everything, for us, may come to a stand-still
and every path and road, may look uphill.
In each other's life, we may not've the presence
and so may go away, in life, all the essence.

Like items in life, there wont be any guarantee
that each other, we may meet or get to see.
Even if we go onto put even a slight effort
all it would result, maybe for us,a lot of hurt.

Maybe it was destined that we cant be together
and fate took us away better late than never.
It may take us, GOD knows, a lot of while
for us to regain, on our faces, the lost smile.

WHY CANT IT BE ME AND YOU???

Till eternity, why can’t it be me and you
an answer for this, wish i had a clue.
Is it that, years ago, when we took birth
it was destined that we couldn’t get mirth??

Till eternity, why can’t it be me and you
an answer for this, wish i had a clue.
Though we, in many ways, were complete opposite
in front of the sacred pyre, years later, cant we sit??

Till eternity, why can’t it be me and you
an answer for this, wish i had a clue.
Why can’t i get atleast one last chance
so that what you want from me, I’ll enhance??

Till eternity, why can’t it be me and you
an answer for this, wish i had a clue.
Should we start leaving everything to fate
to bring us back before its too late??

WISH I WERE BLIND....

At times, I wish i were good as blind
so that about happenings i dont've to mind.
Else all that it would result in pain
and all hopes and wishes, would wane.

At times, I wish i were good as blind
so that what all happened, I can rewind.
By getting to see what happened looking back
hopefully i will know what all i lack.

At times, I wish i were good as blind
hope some answers, I’ll be able to find.
The true meaning of life would be in silence
and by that, I hope to challenge my existence.

At times, I wish i were good as blind
atleast seeing that, someone would be kind.
Even though she may not be there for tomorrow
all i wish is she comes and wipes my sorrow.

WHAT DID YOU WANT OF ME???

When we were together, what did you want of me
as i admit initially, I was always at sea.
Maybe i did the delay so that there would be thrill
whenever each of your wishes, I would go onto fulfill.

When we were together, what did you want of me
a lot of them, I was unable to guess or see.
Atleast you could have always given me a hint
so that i tried to, however mammoth or succinct.

When we were together, what did you want of me.
In many ways, I failed to give you glee.
Perhaps what all i did appeared a commonplace
and hence from me, you felt to maintain some space.

When we were together, what did you want of me
no longer, i guess, together we will be.
Thinking about it makes me feel remorse
as from now, life will be like closed doors.

TRUE LOVE....

Blessed are those who are bestowed, in their lives, with true love
as from time immemorial, it has been deemed as a gift from above.
Though it may involve people making a lot of compromise
it would help them in handling issues that in life arise.

Blessed are those who are bestowed, in their lives, with true love
as from time immemorial, it has been deemed as a gift from above.
Looks would not matter whether if the persons are handsome or pretty
as being in each other's high and low would always be the duty.

Blessed are those who are bestowed, in their lives, with true love
as from time immemorial, it has been deemed as a gift from above.
The relationship runs on the premise of mutual acceptance and trust
and forever it would mean that it would even conquer lust.

Blessed are those who are bestowed, in their lives, with true love
as from time immemorial, it has been deemed as a gift from above.
People would have nothing much in life to fume and fret
and each other, till eternity, they wont go to forget.

LESSONS FROM LOVE....

Being in love, I learnt how to smile
but it never took me the extra mile.

Being in love made me proud of my existence
but it didn’t continue due to my impudence.

Being in love made me always keep up my head
but it didn’t give me the path to take life ahead.

Being in love made me discover such a nice muse
but it is tears of blood that i now ooze.

Being in love made me look ahead in life
but alas now what am surrounded is strife.

Being in love made me crave for someone's face
but even now, her cherubic smile, I cant efface.

Being in love, on myself, i felt proud
but now on, I’ve to be alone in the crowd.

Being in love made me realize the importance of sacrifice
but it was all meant to be futile brings tears to my eyes.

Being in love with her, till eternity. I’ll never regret
but will feel sad that my memories she'll have to forget.

MY SHOULDER….

My shoulder, has started to feel cold
as none has come near it, to hold.
Thinking about someone’s warmth, its lost
and so has developed around it, lot of frost.

My shoulder, has started to feel cold
as none has come near it, to hold.
It remembers someone’s head on it used to rest
which for it, were like moments of zest.

My shoulder, has started to feel cold
as none has come near it, to hold.
How nice it was when someone’s hands used to intertwine
as the feeling would have been there of “FOREVER MINE”.

My shoulder, has started to feel cold
as none has come near it, to hold.
It is offlate that I feel all sorts of pain
and regret for, moments of being vain.

ODE TO MY NAUTANKI....

Where have you gone away, my nautanki
when, for my happiness, you were the key?
I will never be able, you, to forget
and what all wrong i did, I regret.

Where have you gone away, my nautanki
as being with you, was always glee.
It was you whom i used to worship
and your name was always on my lip.

Where have you gone away, my nautanki
even now i remember what you were to me
as in my mind, always there, your antics
and what all you had in your bag of tricks.

Where have you gone away, my nautanki
till my next birth,you,i've to wait to see.
Forever you'll be there in my heart
and memories we shared,wont depart.

HOW DID IT ALL DISAPPEAR???

I just wonder how feelings got disappear(ed)

from someone whom i regarded as my dear.

So much now, she, i tend to miss

that has made me loose all bliss.

I just wonder how feelings got disappear(ed)

it looks the heart has been jabbed by a spear.

Thinking about that, it has gone onto bleed

and her love is the only balm that i'll need.

I just wonder how feelings got disappear(ed)

as it appears that my mind has this fear.

It dreads the truth that i have to be alone

and all smiles would be replaced by a frown.

I just wonder how feelings got disappear(ed)

some things in life are still hazy and unclear.

I dont know whether i'll ever get salvation

or will catch up with me, someone’s retribution.

THE SIGNIFICANT OTHER…

God knows, for both of us, what he went to chalk
that though we didn’t ever meet or even talk
why he created in me so much of a pain and bother
by making you, in someone’s life, as a significant other.

It was known that we had a friend who was common
with whom, one day, I thought I could have my union .
But even if I had managed to take away her farther
you would be still there as in her life as a significant other.

Her love is what I always had a desire and want
though about you, she mostly used to rave and rant.
All these were an obstacle to bring her to me, closer
as you were always in her shadow as a significant other.

Now that in my life, her, I know not how I lost
and for that, night and day, am paying the cost.
My only wish is that one day when she gets a partner
hope you will cease to be there as a significant other.

A RECRUITER’S QUANDARY.. (Suggest a better title)

As a part of ourjob, people, we recruit
so that to either us or clients, they suit.
The emphasis would always be on quality
though for incentives, is necessary, quantity.

While we strive hard, to the right person, select
efforts are made so that they are, to the job, perfect.
Yet the same logic fails us while in future
we embark to find, for us, the right partner!!

It may be the season of uncertainty and recession
or is it that one cant decide whether its love or infatuation
that one may go onto make decisions that are wrong
while “shortlisting” the person to whom our heart should belong.

In the crowd, there may be many a people
few are those,who,in the heart, create a ripple.
Would be, to find the best for ourself, the onus
so that being with them in life, would be a bonus.

Though for this, ironically, there is no thumb rule
all once can do is to be prudent and not become a fool
so that one day,if comes about a lot of grief and pain
we don’t’ve to regret that the right person ,we didn’t retain.

"IAM FEELING COLD"

Those days when someone used to say "iam feeling cold"
all i wished was, close to my heart,she,i could hold
so that not only would both of us start to feel warm
but make each other aware that to us, nothing could harm.

Those days when someone used to say "iam feeling cold"
all i wished was, close to my heart,she,i could hold.
Even if there would be, for both, lot of weariness
everything would disappear as each other would caress.

Those days when someone used to say "iam feeling cold"
all i wished was, close to my heart,she,i could hold.
It would herald unleashing each other's latent passion
and doing what would exist in the world of fascination.

Those days when someone used to say "iam feeling cold"
all i wished was, close to my heart,she,i could hold.
Alas, about those days, all can i do is to remember
and for all my misgivings, reflect and ponder.

IF ONE LAST TIME WE COULD MEET...

Before end of time, if one last time, we could meet
i promise that my heart,towards you,i will let it to beat.
Slowly i have realized that it was a huge cost
to have,like you, a gem of a person, lost.

Forgiveness i ask and mistakes i wont repeat
before end of time, if one last time, we could meet.
Your presence, at one time, meant so very much
that forever my heart, has got touch.

Though iam sure that things won’t be the same
as you will be bound by someone else's name.
Before end of time,if one last time, we could meet
i will request that for the last time, together we seat.

Hoping knowing me, you wont ever regret
and my details, you wont easily forget.
I hope, with some kindness, me you'll treat
before end of time, if one last time, we could meet.

MEOW...ARE YOU THERE???

To talk to me, all that someone had to say "meow, are you there"
and i would have wished that her eyes,i could just stare
so that it could be transported to the world of dream(s)
and in her company, smiles is what i would think to beam.

To talk to me, all that someone had to say "meow, are you there"
all that i would've done is offer her all my love and care.
For me, she was some sort of a recurring addiction
with whom i thought to fulfill all my fascination.

To talk to me, all that someone had to say "meow, are you there"
my love will always be there,which,now and forever, I’ll swear.
What all i had, I was ready, to, wholeheartedly give
as from my life, I never wanted her to ever leave.

To talk to me, all that someone had to say "meow, are you there"
alas all these are memories and her i cant see anywhere.
Those words for me were like coming from the mouth of a baby
that every night when i used to hear from her like a lullaby.

THINGS ARE BACK TO THE SAME....

Things are back to the same
and why did It have to be my name.
All my efforts have been late
all i can do is blame my fate.

Things are back to the same
and i've got myself to blame.
Yet again, I’ve to wait for the dawn
so that once more, I can move on.

Things are back to the same
i've to bury my head in shame.
Has gone away all the essence
leaving me worried about my existence.

Things are back to the same
when will get over this game.
I just hope will end this strife
so that proudly i can lead life.

MUSINGS AT PEARL GATES..

As i sit and, at PEARL GATES, wait for my turn
what all happened in my life, am having a re-run.
Though there are a lot of them and the que is long
there is not even a single face i know in the throng.

Very soon, hope I’ll receive my redemption
and will vanish away all the apprehension.
Atleast then, to myself, I’ll let out a smile
which had vanished from my face, a long while.

If i could confess, its when i went to err
which caused, at one time, pain to her.
Her forgiveness, to ask, chances i never had
or else, long back itself, I would've been glad.

Heaven or hell, I know not what'll be my domain
but a human's birth is not what i want to regain.
Even if i were to see only a lot of sorrow
i wont mind as i don’t want to wake up tomorrow.

On the address system, my name, they are out to call
and very soon, on my life's chapter, curtains will fall.
Somewhere on earth, I know for sure, that an angel
will smile in peace and about me, to others, tell.

EACH SONG I LISTEN..

Those days whenever you used to dedicate a song
thought i,to you,forever,i will belong.
Not just that it would make me day
but keep my boredom and worries at bay.

Those days whenever you used to dedicate a song
thought i,to you,forever,i will belong.
About life with you,i used to always dream
and on my face, a smile, I used to beam.

Those days whenever you used to dedicate a song
thought i,to you,forever,i will belong.
I wished everything for us would remain the same
and forever would be carved in my heart, your name.

Those days whenever you used to dedicate a song
thought i,to you,forever,i will belong.
All my memories, about you, will be intact
though for my follies wish i could retract.

WHERE ARE THOSE SMILES???

Where has gone away all the smile
as to beam it, its taking such a while.
May be i will never feel the charm
as to someone, I’ve done lot of harm.

Where has gone away all the smile
as to beam it, its taking such a while
Guess it remembers someone who has gone away
unless she allows, it wont come what may.

Where has gone away all the smile
as to beam it, its taking such a while.
Offlate I’ve lost something thats precious
which i can give by being very judicious.

Where has gone away all the smile
as to beam it, its taking such a while.
Maybe it,i'll have to forget in this life
as apparently, I have to only endure strife.

THE UNENDING QUILL...

Here i am the unending quill
which can write on anything at will.
The only way to make it stop
is by making ideas not to crop.

Ever since i proclaimed myself a bard
for writing something, its been never hard.
Its only that i regret that i had to loose
someone, for my works, was an ideal muse.

All that comes in the mind as a thought
or if it is an explanation i've sought
all that the quill goes on to write
without caring whether its wrong or right.

It has been some sort of fortune
that even if i write out of tune
of ideas and themes, there is no scarcity
so that i keep on writing till eternity.

So i hope that my quill never goes dry
even if life leaves me to fret and sigh.
Atleast let me have something new to say
on whatever thought would come my way.