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At times, life is out to give such a blow that a direction,how to thread, it doesnt show as it becomes difficult on, it, how to face as well as understand how to endure that phase. To lead a life,these days,one needs, a job, for survival and when that isnt there,there cant be anything more cruel as when the rest around are out, theitr livelihood, out to eek one is made to think that life has turned very bleak. Food seems to have lost all its flavour and taste and it seems better to be hungry, than it to waste. All one can think is to by oneself sit quiet and wonder how something positive,one can site. The worst that can happen when you get to hear that someone you thought was there to wipe your tear deems you, to her, of no longer important and of any use and one knows that the relation also one was destined to loose. Yet people around, out of courtesy, may be a little kind even though uncertainty would always remain in the mind. It is just that hope will be their for the silver lining which would put an end to ongoing strife and suffering. All one can hope, to come soon,the new dawn so that it gives a new direction to move on, At the same time, if one were made to stumble it was an experience to make one considerate and humble.
One last time,I wish I could see your faceas its something that I cannot efface.One last time,hope I could,your hand, I holdamd make you know things that have been untold.One last time,time, I wish could go backas we would know,how much we lack (ed).One last time,thinking of the days of the pastwhen we thought happiness was there to everlast.One last time,thinking about what went wrongas with each other,we couldnt remain long.One last time,ponder over what will happen to meas never again, you may get to see.One last time,give me the beaming smile of yoursas I havent seen that in many hours.One last time,for what all wrong I did, forgiveas finally from your life,I take leave.

Whenever i see people, here and there, by the lot i ponder,what in each other,they might've sought and seeing the happenings in the present i wonder whether till eternity, they are made for each other? Feelings maybe there, for each other, that is true and one may not think about during a cry or hue. But when it comes to taking life to a stage further are we sure that our partner and us are made for each other? The first impression that we might have seen is what, from it, we might have thought to glean. Sometimes its like that we dont want to left like a loner and so we compromise without thinking whether we are made for each other. Be it for a time pass or a life long genuine need one hopes with whom we like, to other;s say, pay heed as after all, life long one may think to be together and tell all around that they are made for each other.
As today, as usual, i pondered on what to write came to mind that i tell what is my current plight which, to many, maybe common to've faced a breach and realized, in varied ways, a bitter lesson,life may teach. Some people put a garb of being really helpless and enact a scene by which the other may get impress. The other may think to extend a helping hand without verifying any antecedent beforehand. Once the favour, whatever it maybe, is got the person who helped is quickly forgot. The cash or service would go down the drain and to trace the person, efforts would go in vain. If the great Caesar had to utter "et tu Brutus" what of ordinary mortals, the fate,one can guess as these days, it looks like something very common and as though by sheer accident or chance, it was to happen. A few, just because they are like a cat always curious end up in a situation which maybe really nefarious and when then the other person goes on their way they brood what was the reason for them to go astray. All these and more makes life look like a b***h or makes one wonder that its like a 7 year hitch that all that one can do is to pay a heavy price for behaving in a way that all would say was unwise. But life goes on leaving an experience that was bitter and one way to look positively at it for the better. To trust anyone make a time too much or a while but whatever one does, it wouldn't be easy to smile.
Many people in this life of mine came and with few, things were never the same. Yet you, when i came across,an answer,wish i knew whether if you left me, would you take me with you? Conversations with you, iam pleased that i had as it brightened me whenever i had felt sad. This was something that i had seen in very few i wondered whether if you left me, would you take me with you? Knowing you had turned out to be a real pleasure which was something impossible to even measure. Though i felt with you, i share my cry and hue still whether if you left me, would you take me with you? I used to feel that it was some sort of reward that all my inherent negative, you were out to ward. Though in my life then you were someone very new wondered i whether if you left me, would you take me with you? Yet whenver i gave a thought about the future ahead still would remain things that were still unsaid. One answer to which i never had found a clue was whether if you left me, would you take me with you?
I feel that it was some sort of a magic that made us instantly to each click(ed).Though i knew it was a force greater than gravity i wonder whether you'll be there for me till eternity.Many others like you, i might still knowbut someone like you had some sort of a glow.Though i'll always feel that i'll get feliicitywill you be there for me till eternity?Though we are seperated by two different placei wish that one day i;ll get to see your face.An answer i wish i knew prior i change my city as to will you be there for me till eternity?I wont deny that about you i dont think and may always, an ode, i may sit to ink.Yet i feel that in my life you are a necessity but will you be there for me till eternity?
I just cant understand as to why towards me you sometimes so very shy as one thing if i want to hear night and day wont you, those three words,to me, say? Happiness so much you are out to bring odes on you, i wish i could always sing. If i came across, tell me, by you way wont you, those three words,to me, say? Though you are no where in sight your face in my heart is shining bright. since you have been like the sun's ray wont you, those three words,to me, say? Hope one day, i'll get to see and there would be endless glee. When my head, on your lap, i would lay wont you, those three words,to me, say?
About a "place" as i sit to write what it is like, i dont know how to cite as one just knows that its dark and black and once you go,one cannot come back. If one is keen, to get an entry in he is to commit in life a lot of sin. The guardians out there wouldnt refuse as a bad person is someone they dont want to loose. All forces tend to unleash their fury and undoubetdly the scene is really gory as in a cauldron,sinners are out to get roast(ed) whereas the custodians arwe out to raise a toast. Humanity seems to be a matter utmost trivial as the treatment meted out there is brutal. One's skin to asunder none want to wait so that the blood they can savour before its late. Inevitable it maybe and hard to dismiss as its where a few have to meet their nemesis. Just by the thought of how is the feel is enough to make anyone's head reel. Anyways, the inmates are bound to rot that too even if forgiveness they sought as everything is bound to have a reason even if it meant undergoing this treason.
Sometimes it is bound to happen that we hit the low and reasons for it,even if we try hard, we may not know. But when people dont help even if with them you stay its time to realize that you longer have a say. Though to a familiar gang, you may never belong and you may try hard, between them, to get along. Yet when they feel its better to keep you at bay its time to realize that you longer have a say. One may think its beneficial, in certain ways, to compromise so that you build an image of someone who is nice. Yet from their enjoyment, if they decide to keep away its time to realize that you longer have a say. Every night, the same food, all may eat and besides each other may think to seat. Still if none are concerned to ask how was your day its time to realize that you longer have a say. Still money or goodies, you get from home, you may share and may give your best apparels so that some can wear. Despite that people arent concerned where you lay its time to realize that you longer have a say.
Can be seen regularly a lot of people who ulike you and me, are much more simple. Sadly attention to them one may not pay as everyone would be busy in their own way. Monday morning as i got into the local about the "dabba", there was something special as before i could settle and envisage i realized that it was actually meant forluggage!! As i got to see what kind was the crowd could be seen someone perched as a cloud. No doubt had planned to catch up on sleep as i wondered on how later he would leap. Stations came, went as i continued to travel a lot of things i got to se and unravel. But one thing was there as a reality that in the city, place was a scarcity. Soon i knew that at DADAR i wsa to alight and moving towards the gate,began the fight. Soon i knew i would have gone out of the insanity that a bystander might have called sea of humanity.
One day, to myself, i was out to think as what makes two people to get link(ed)and what direction each other's lives were to takeif one day unfortunately their relation were to break.
When they are together, its like unimaginable blissand as though, each other's company, they cant miss.But may come a day whem comes to end this phasewherein they may not want to see each other's face.
When together, every negative seems to be forgiven and each other's lives, they try to somehow enliven.But when either of them is high and dry and has hit the down the other may look at an opppurtunity to the other, disown.Though apparently wouldnt look, like before, the sameas to what went wrong, none would want to take the blame.It may turn out to be that it turns out to be a agreementby which feelings surface up and may it look violent.Without giving it a thought that wasnt at all hard"frality thy name woman" said, of yesteryear, a great bard.But that has not spared any of today's 21st century guy as it can be seen as an excuse that they cant buy.Even if its known that is going to happen the inevitable why should, the love scars, one wonders, be so terrible.Is it that can be purchased, just like that, some trustor has come an era where one seeks nothing but lust?One can hope that would end this insanity and one day there would restored the sanctity.As to whats happening offlate, an explantion i sought and this i wrote as to what came to as my thought!!.
In each other's heart, we always staywhich is for sure, night and day.Even if for a moment,you dont feel at easethink about me whenever there is a breeze.I always wish that you continue to smileas that must not leave you even for a while.Even if a bad day has made you loose your peacethink about me whenever there is a breeze.Its been a pleasure,you,for me, to knowas GOD had some plans, when he went to show.Whenever you think, of life, needs a new leasethink about me whenever there is a breeze.Forever we'll reside in each other's heartand will never think, to never, ever, depart.Even if feelings towards me start to ceasethink about me whenever there is a breeze.
Yesterday night, as to myself, i was at my flati waited patiently for the dabbawallah, as i sat.Slowly as ticked the clock and went ahead the time i was loosing patience without any reason or rhyme.Just to kill and do time pass for a slight whileto someone, my roomie,gave a missed call from my mobile.But since we didnt get any sort of response from that endwe knew that something else we do for time to spend.
Time seemed to go so amazingly slowand where our dabba's were, we didnt know.Just then my cell was to let out a loud beepthat had made another roomie to awaken from his skeep.For once,it was a new number as well as a person who wanted me to guess who without any clue or reason.i tried hard from my memory and my brain and to recollect the identity,but all in vain.For quite sometime, to guess, i tried really quite harduntil he told me that he too, like me, was a bard.Finally when it was disclosed that it was MAULIK from AAH community my face lit up as it gave so much of an unexpected felicity.Dude, though your face, i wasnt able to seeall that i can thank you for giving this glee.Just like how your works are something that i welcome my wish is that you'll be in touch for a long time to come!!
There wouldnt be any sort of motivation to even indugle in one's routine ablution. Its like there is no medium to express as there is no around worth y to impress!! As for sure, that none will want to meet me all i can think to sleep back like a baby. Its only that i wont think of throwing a tantrum though i know that i have to be lonesome.
Seems to have gone away all my appetite as to grab something is also not in sight. Satisfaction seems to come from a cup of tea which i may've to pay for or get it for free!! There is no purpose of thinking to go outdoor at the same time, no purpose, in staying indoor. Whatever maybe the reason devoid of any rhyme on thing is sure, 24*7 is always siesta time!! As slowly comes, as usual,the evening it makes the scene even more boring as surely wouldnt be around,a special friend with whom one can think,time, to spend. As the night comes, the stomach begins to whine gently reminding that its time for me to dine. Even though what you devour, people may stare what they think is the last thing as one has to take care. Comes to close yet another lazy day one hopes something would come our way. Though one may think to do what one please in reality, uncertainity, would have disappeared the peace.
As we sit without any purpose and gaze at the ceiling there is some sort of, around us, an ill feeling. This is because each of us have our own unique worry which maybe either trivial or really scary. One is perplexed on how is going to act the market as some wierd movement is going to make him really upset. He may have to put a brave face in front of his client incase his forecasts fail and make them turn violent!! For me, its an endless wait for a new dawn so that i can start afresh and in life, move on. Each and every moment, my eyes are out to blink comes to mind, what my folks, about me, are out to think. Another is busy on a negotiation call with a film producer so that he gets some work and fills the company coffer. At the same time, by virtue of the deal, he hopes to receive somethign apart from his basic pay thats called incentive!!. Some always are meant to be in some sort of inner turbulence as either fate or life is always out to test their patience. For him, his worry is how his GF, in a new city, be able to adjust and that in his absence, which of his subordinates, he can trust. Moving to another who is unsure,about the timing of his shift and whether while coming back home, would he privileged for a lift. Well, that can be said as to be one of the many downside of being in the media as easily you can be taken for a ride. To our last member who seems to have lost interest in his study especially since he is far way from someone with whom he was steady. It looks like the anxt is when he cant get to hear from her and sitting here, all that he can do is to silently suffer. Well, all these thoughts cam e to me like an imagination which was like i read from each one's mind and perception. As i had nothing new to write on as i sat thought an introduction, to people, i give of my flat!
There maybe times when one has so much freedom that they may think of creating some sort of mayhem. Yet, what all is in the mind, one may not get to do as what the implications are,life may not show. So, to spend time, the brain, one may whack as ideas are hard to come by and some lack. It becomes really difficult to endure this phase as well as to put up a sort of smiling face. This could be happen in any sort of season that to without any sot of rhyme or reason. One may even go to the extent of being insane by being made to do things that are mundane. Few may control what comes to them as their feeling by means of a glance towards the blank ceiling. They appear to be completely, as others would say "lost" and hence them, they wouldnt think to disturb at any cost. Yet whatever some may do or just sit and gaze time keeps on going on the usual fast pace. It is bound to happen that in a lot of confusion may ultimately manifest into some kind of destruction. Anyways, on something today, i had to write on this topic,i dont know whether it is right. As its upto the reader to pass his or her judgement of what i was undergoing as a predicament.
These days it has become so very vital that we've someone in our lives, who are special. Always with that person one hopes to be everyday and night, their face,would like to see. Though is each other's heart, they may always reside sometimes it may not be possible to be always beside. Genuine may be, for this,that is many a reason but may make one feel lost and that they are in treason. Yet these days, there are many a medium,to've a talk and if that someone is closeby,may be possible,to even walk as people would go to any extent to, a voice, to hear if its sure that the other person is really their dear. But one seriously wonders if all these are true and whether its necessary to raise a cry or hue as to whether we really feel left out and terrible if we dont go to hear from someone inseperable. "Set love free,If its yours,it'll come back.Else it wasnt yours"-someone said and still one wonders, how many have taken it to their head by trying to somehow, with all efforts, surpress without having to, the other, at all express. How many of us understand that if there is silence it itself has, in its own way, has an unique essence that even if one may not want to open up in life still they are there, be it in joy or extreme strife? Well, these are few things that one must give a thought and an explation,for long, i've always sought. As it'll remain an 'enigma' that if one is sanguine feelings that one expresses are always genuine.
Inspired by Robert Frost's lines in "Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening" wherein he said: "..... The woods are lovely, dark and deep, But I have promises to keep, And miles to go before I sleep, And miles to go before I sleep."It is known that life is a rollercoaster ride and we must have confidence always beside. Even if a shortcut to me, it were to show atleast i know before i sleep, i've miles to go. The name of the game is prolonged peristence for which one must have ample patience. Atleast i know, if i were to slog, to and fro it'll be that before i sleep, i've miles to go. Like the rock of Gibraltar, confidence has to be stern and for theright thing to happen,one must await one's turn. Even though i know that from failures, is what i've to grow its for sure that before i sleep, i've miles to go. Lot of pleasures and sacrifices may take its toll for reaching what one has set as the ultimate goal. Its a cinch that now itself iam prepared to undergo that before i sleep, i've miles to go.
Its been really hard for me to move on as nowhere i can sight the elusive dawn. Hence, for now, its been a real long while for me, to've, on my face, a beaming smile. Sometimes, at night, i sit up awake and during the day, food, i feel to partake. Though happenings around me, i try to be agile its taking me time to let out that beaming smile. I've so much time that i can do what i please and yet i dont since the mind is not in peace. Time is so much that i can do what i like and while yet i shudder and its not letting me let out a smile. Frustration in the mind is slowly out to creep and contemplating on the future,heart is out to weep. though my feelings havent burst out like the NILE its becoming hard for me to let out a smile.
To me, you are my forever queen to whom i can do,whatever umpteen. Yet one thing i would want to learn that what, from all this, i'll get in return. You may think that i am being selfish but just like you, i too have many a wish. And one thing you must never ever forget that its human for somethings to expect. Money to spend on you, i'll work and save and you may exploit me like your pet slave. All things,within limits, you'll get what you sought as you will always remain among the elite lot. But, i'll have to sit and heave a sigh if by my efforts, you dont get satisfy. My worry is that your wishes you may keep latent or show that by my efforts, you arent content. One thing is,before itself,the reality, you must see that am someone simple and not the SULTAN OF BRUNEI. It musnt be that later you get a picture that is scary and you not repent that you got to know someone ordinary. So dear, carefully consider of mine, this proposal as it comes from someone, who to you, trivial. Whatever it may be, i'll gladly accept your decision as now itself, i dont want to invite apprehension.
They say the way to a man's heart is by food by which he'll, to his partner, remain always good as something for his stomach has been prepare(d) it is more enough as thats what they care. But from eons ago, has always puzzled diffrent men as what are those that they have to do to please women. Each woman had something in her that used to vary and giving it a thought itself was something scary. With no intention of raising any sort of dispute i write on something,that for women, may not suit as i vehemently feel whether what all we do or shower on our women, will it help in being with us forever. Earlier it used to be that it was all done as a need and it was accepted devoid of any sort of greed. These days,apart from being, to catch the other's attention it is commercial and as though one is trying for retention. The female folk of today seem to raise a cry and hue that too without any purpose or any sort of clue. It could be for taking them to a place for a date or being in their terms,doing something out of date. All day,to men they can think, missed calls to give within the TAT, the call doesnt come,not ready to forgive as they want their guys to work less and about them think even while work they dont have time for eyes to blink. Well, someone wise discovered a magical key that to keep a gal happy,give her the best "chockie". Few still went to the extent of gifting a teddy bear which apparently, more than the person,got the care!! All these makes look trivial all the sacrifice one is supposed to do if to be called wise. It looks like none of us sit back and wonder whether all this is called for or just a blunder. Well,the isnt whether pampering is right or wrong as people who indulge in it will do it to whom they belong. The reality is that none cannot think to resist as in isolation, apparently, one cannot exist.
If marriage has always been an institution then why is this bond lead towards destruction?The meaning seems to have, these days, lost its wayas people divorce for reasons that make partners sway.
None can asunder what,its said,that was decided by the lordand yet these days it looks its pretty normal than oddthat a license for sex, marriage looks like a necessity and not for partner's to share sadness and felicity.Earlier men seeking divorce would leave others high and drywhich would make the dependents just to sit back and sigh.But these days, educated women are out to make a moveif they find that their hubby's are not in the right groove.Whatever maybe in either partner the tangible defect has anyone thought what is going to be, on the child,effectSometimes it looks like its resorted even without thinking because for reasons like they didnt like the other snoring.Seeing what all is in existence as an insanity makes one wonder about marriage's sanctity.All this looks, for sure, some sort of a farceas none seem to realize what it leaves as scars.All one hopes if partners if they feel they are eruditethey give it a thought whether its an option thats rightso that by giving it a thought many times over before the relationship they think to sever.
I try hard to let out a breath and very soon would be placed a wreath. To hell is where i will be taken in for all that i had done, from long, as sin. Brash i had been throughout my youth and people regarded me as someone uncouth. Yet to their words i hardly thought to care or from anytrhing, seldom, i felt to beware. Family, long ago,deserted me for good and neither i needed them for even food. Even if i knew that i were to heave a sigh i just knew soon how to get myself high. I went around dismissing it as a pack of lies when people warned that i was indulging in vice. Though i knew that i would drink to fall and also move with anything that would crawl. Yet one day, never in my dreams, i would expect and the doctor's words, i cant even think to forget. All this reckless life that till then i had led had cost me dear and confided me to the bed. Soon will come for redemption the moment and for what err i did, i just wish to lament. All one can hope never to get into a phase that one cannot without regret or any grace.
We might have made our folks frustrate(D) and by our actions, acted like an ingrate. But its rightly said that only when one is a parent that responsibilities we would know thats latent. Children are deemed to be gifts from above on whom has to be showered a lot of love. Yet has to be ensured that they dont turn into a enfant terrible and hence we ourselves have to,for that, responsible. They maybe from others, in many ways, diffrent and hence we have to apply our own judgement. It calls for us, to be in every way, sagacious as a child maybe normal and not always precocious. Cannot be underestimated the value of the other spouse if in their minds, values we have to espouse. As if the best in everything they have to imbibe has to be ensured an environment of positive vibe(s). As parents,we would never be there for the eternal tomorrow and so children must know how to face joy and sorrow. Apart from taking care of their varied necessity they must know how to face any sort of adversity. Diffrent things, on their own, they will learn and each other person's, respect, they will earn An example, as parents, we have to ourselves lead so that in future, they will be able to repeat the deed. Though on how to be a parent, i've no expereince still i feel,on what to do, i've learned the essence as its all's wish to be a parent who is better so that kids later will never think to regret.

There was something in destiny that made us meet
as everyime,i felt, used to some sort of a treat.
Whenever there used to be a moment of slightest glee
to enjoy, i wondered, without you, how it would be.
I secretly wished that you would be mine
so that i could always be on cloud nine.
Of happiness,apparently, i thought i had the key
but to unlock it, i wondered,how it would be.
Many things happened that left me with pain
and efforts to forget it, all seemed to be in vain.
Still your presence made all of it gradually flee
to face them, without you, how it would be.
Yet for one problem, there wouldnt be a cure
that the inevitable was to happen for sure
as to one day, with someone else,i would see
and the days,to lead, without you, how it would be.

Fate has made us to move away and at diffrent places, we stay. Wherever i go and look for that face i dont know how i'll endure this phase. With great difficulty, life, am out to lead as for your presence, my heart is out to bleed. I know for you, i have this disease, for sure and there cannot be any sort of cure. Even though we might have some conversation still there is some sort of limitation as you, i dont get to see, at all beside so that i can see the setting sun every eventide. It is true that absence makes the heart grow fonder and none can think, our relationship, to asunder as we have from God above, his benediction for us to move on in life without any tribulation. As another day comes to a slow end my message, through the air,i send as though we might be seperated from the seas seven that wont harm us,as we are the couple from heaven.
If one day,God thought, i must take birth how would he know that i was destined for mirth? If one day, i was placed in a womb, from above what surety that i would receive parental love? If one day,my siblings decided not to take my side that too even though the same house we reside? If one day were to go away all who are my friend will God be kind enough to make new people befriend? If one day, to someone unknown, i think to smile will they be willing, to walk, the extra mile? If one day, forever,i think to hold someone's hand can i expect bliss with a turn of a magic wand? If one day, to someone special, those 3 words i say whats the surety that person will always, stay? If one day, our smooth relatinonship, gets over will i be in a position, from the shock, recover? If one day, ithink its time to,the world, renounce can i be sure of a good future,even if its an ounce? If one day, i can decide,the worlds, that is two what it'll be like,i wont know as i've no clue.
INTRODUCTION: "It is an enigma as to what makes people attractand whilst together, situations,how they react.Though maybe unpredictable what maybe the scenariowhat could few, i thought, through my work,i show."It may happen that the chap is such a nerdand the gal,about certain things, not even heard!!Among all her, she might be the most pretty and sadly be seen with someone really scary!!If that bloke's strcuture,one got to sawhis friend would look as though she has anoerixia!!A few gals tend to be cute and really plump though the guy's biceps would match a camel's hump!!Yet some guys, thanks to their genes, are very tallthat on a giraffe his friend would've to sit and his name call!!All that, 24*7, she can think is to sit and yakand the poor fellow has to think what to talk!!In him, might look that he has all the arrogancewhereas like a nun she might be involved in penance!A few tend, unfortunately,with jealousy turn greenand their men may look with other women, not been seen!A few concerned guys are constantly out to worry the lass isnt even ready to feel a iota of sorry.Some,due to their looks, may tend to be pompousand the poor man cant do anything and not get furious.
A lot of guys are always known to be extrovertwhereas the family,the gal doesnt want to hurt.Child like pampering is what a lady may want from someonethough the other may be driven by whats his vision!!Yet some ingrates are so slaved by their viceand its hard to see the suffering of someone nice.The last kinds are those who are immersed in worship and the villainous partner, profanity comes from his lip.CONCLUSION:"These are the extremes that one gets to sightabout who, i thought, in my style, i tried to write.Despite exceptions being there in every way happiness in people is what matters night and day"